I got into a writer's slump since I wrote that poem. Ahaha by the next day I was feeling fine, sadness all gone, but I could not, for the life of me, write anything. There was no inspiration, no spark. Nothing. No joke, it scared me. Only half an hour ago did I get something concrete, and I had to type quickly to not let it fly away.
It's here. I simply don't know anywhere else to publish it.
- Such is the power of reminisces.
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fate_otaku- April 22nd, 20:24
- Reminiscing ~
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- fate_otaku
- April 19th, 0:34
artistic
I don't ever (or very rarely ever) write anything other than blog posts like this about my experiences. This broke my heart to new levels. You only have yourself to blame, Fate. I'd love to see him again, though. Say hi and eat together. Or something.
Here is da poem~
Drake's Good Ones Go is just on constant replay. I'm not even a fan. D:
- writer!Fate tried to write non death-related things.
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- fate_otaku
- April 18th, 19:34
hungry
I liked this one. :3 I find it cute and makes me go "aww!" Also, I bought a new jacket today. I was going to buy a parka for the rainy days (I only have one jacket and it's not even warm or anything), but the New Look branch at Broad St. Mall didn't stock any (FOR SHAME). This cost me £27.99. I still have the receipt, so I may return it after I've gotten bored with it. :P
To be honest, I'm surprised people like the "There is parting but there is no sadness..." one more than The Dead is Victor. Personally, I prefer The Dead is Victor, only because I wrote it without really knowing how I was feeling about at the time so it's really open to interpretation. Most have seem to come to conclusion about me leaving Brunei, but I don't know. Who knows?
Loving a reader
I found that,
loving a person who loves reading
is lonely.
They sit there for hours,
unmoving, save for their fingers turning the pages and
their eyes following the words.
You'll miss them most when they're like that.
You look at them, and occasionally they look up at you,
but they don't see you.
You talk to them, and they nod after a while,
if you're lucky.
They're there, but not 'there'
as if their spirits have left their bodies,
like when you're dreaming --
well, I suppose they could also be called dreamers.
But loving a person who loves reading can also be
fun and
adventurous
with lots of humour.
Oh -- romantic, too.
They share so much you'd think you were with them.
And they love you more when you sit with them,
and empathise their feelings of loss and despair,
for the death of their favourite character.
Loving a person who loves reading,
I find,
is a blessing.
writer!Fate will try to write more happier things from now on. :D Thank you for encouraging me, everyone! *hugs* ;~;
- A wild writer!Fate appears.
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- fate_otaku
- April 17th, 13:26
Guys, I've found love in writing poetry. It makes me so happy and so content; as if all the burdens of the day and the stale pressures on my shoulders get lifted away with every word. And at the end of every finished line the sun just shines a little bit brighter. I'm becoming a genuinely happy person. Though, you might notice that none of my work has the theme of being currently happy. Ha.Misses, misses, and misses (in memory of Jiu Ye*)**
How can one so enviable
be the most pitiful?
You had her when you didn't --couldn't want her
and you lost her just as you started trying.
If you had just answered yes (to her question of whether you like her or not)
and if only she answered no (to your question of whether she wanted a family or not).
When the moon in the lake shattered,
did the shards reach your chest?
When the blue Luo Lan outfit you gave her she shredded,
did your heart get ripped apart?
Dear, dear Meng Xi Mo.
“No meeting again in sight!”*Jiu Ye is a character from the Chinese period romance novel Da Mo Yao (Ballad of the Dessert) by Tong Hua.
**Yes, the alignment is 'part' of the poem.----------------------------------------
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Unable to win over the dead;
one keeps changing, while one stagnates in memory.No effort to remember,
but never able to forget.Tell me, is living a damnation?
Would you love me if I were the one dead instead?
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ---- (unofficial title: A birth and a memory of death)
There is parting, but there is no sadness.
There is reunion, but no trace of gladness.
A pair says goodbye with smiles,
while another greets with tears in their eyes.
Lost love and friendship found,
the joy in budding, and the harshness of death buried in the ground.
- Writer's Block: Check It Out
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- fate_otaku
- April 12th, 20:48
aggravated
Three of the foundations that I bought. Ugh. D:What's the worst case of "buyer's remorse" you've ever had? What were you hoping to get out of your purchase but didn't?
First question listed was submitted by
frustratedpilot. (Follow-up questions, if any, may have been added by LiveJournal.)
- Writer's Block: Bookmarks
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- fate_otaku
- March 13th, 15:52
Game of ThronesYOU WIN, OR YOU DIE.
- Writer's Block: Tears of Joy
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- fate_otaku
- February 20th, 1:46
- and lazy
September 2nd, 2010. It was the day we were official. I don't think I'm in love with him anymore (it's hard to tell when you haven't seen the man in over a year), but that day was a really good day. :3
- Should I?
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- fate_otaku
- January 17th, 0:01
Coffee sounds good right now. It's midnight, I have an exam tomorrow afternoon that I am only 75% ready for. I need to study. I need to stay awake. Therefore drinking coffee is justified.
I have no idea how the fuck I'm supposed to study for a mock Business exam that's on Wednesday and for a Psychology exam on Thursday. How?!
I should've studied earlier instead of leaving everything to last-minute. /palmfaceheaddeskheadwallOTL
- Diary of a Seomate.
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- fate_otaku
- January 8th, 13:27
anxious
Dear Journal,
I'm listening to The Weeknd on speaker right now. I know: bold, right? I just feel dead. For simple reasons. I haven't slept since I woke up yesterday afternoon, introducing myself to the The Vampire Diaries by watching all the episodes from start to finish. Of course, I didn't watch every single episode - I decided to skip 90% of the second season, and then just jumped to Season 3 Episode 10 because we all know the Delena kiss happens in that episode.
I made coffee at 6am to keep me awake, and now it's past 1pm and I'm starting to feel groggy and dead. I also look dead. My skin looks haggard and feels rough which means I really need a mask and an extra dose of moisturiser, I guess.
I've decided to blog here instead of my Blogger. I don't blog as often as I used to, which is kind of sad.
Maybe my thoughts have become shorter and revolve around topics that are not exactly notable. Now that's even sadder.
- *Taeyang voice* It's been a long time....
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- fate_otaku
- December 21st, 2011
as fuck
I haven't posted in such a long time!!!
I've been watching this cable drama (doesn't really matter to us international fans since we all download the episodes anyway) starring Yoon So Yi (Warrior Baek Dong Soo) called Color of Woman (I hate spelling the American way, so henceforth I will just call it CoW). It is really good. I watched the first two episodes with subs, but since the subtitles for the rest of the already-aired episodes haven't come out, I watched episodes 3-6 without.
I'd give you a synopsis, but I'd rather direct you to Dramabeans.
- Frank Ocean Yongseo fanmix.
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- fate_otaku
- December 11th, 2011
ditzy
I've been listening to Frank Ocean non-stop since yesterday, that's why.
Download link for the .zip file for the songs at the bottom. ^_^
LULZ. I was actually going to write some scenarios matching the songs, but it didn't go very well. So instead, I'll just post snippets of the lyrics. :p
If I'm in love... :s
Non-stop. ;)
Denim. ♥
Miss you so. D:
There will be tears. ;~;
Swim good. O_O
Download the songs here. :D
- I felt inspired.
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- fate_otaku
- December 3rd, 2011
- satisfied
Though never will I be good enough, I'm satisfied with this. I just love going through mols.
- Writer's Block: Flattery will get you everywhere
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- fate_otaku
- December 3rd, 2011
"You look very cool," in regards to my outfit yesterday. :3
- You know what, journal?
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- fate_otaku
- December 1st, 2011
- anxious
I was a wreck last night. Not only did I end up staying up all night due to my cramps plus upset stomach, an old friend made a sexist facebook status. My feelings about everything is:.
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Trouble Maker and news of Xing Ming Shi Ye makes it slightly better. Oh haayyy Wallace Huo and Nicky Wu! Nicky crashing Wallace's wedding and running off with the bride? Hell-to-the-fucking-yes please.
I need to stop feeling so anxious. It would help if I knew why I'm so anxious.
- Writer's Block: Friday, I’m in love with you
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- fate_otaku
- December 1st, 2011
blah
The third day of the week, mostly because after a the only full college day I get Thursday free. FYEAH.What is your favorite day of the week?
First question listed was submitted by
omt26. (Follow-up questions, if any, may have been added by LiveJournal.)
- Writer's Block: Frozen delights
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- fate_otaku
- November 29th, 2011
Mint, with chocolate coming in a close second. :D
- So wrong, it's right.
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- fate_otaku
- November 27th, 2011
- happy
I'm trying to become more responsible with revising earlier than usual (where I would revise literally the earliest three nights before the paper) in hopes that my grades get better this way. My - admittedly over-confident - theory is that, since my grades are okay with last-minute revision (they can range from high B's to very low B's depending on whether I listened and understood in the class), they'll be amazing with more time to revise. It makes sense, right?!
I didn't feel like posting on Blogger. I kind of feel like I'm the husband that has multiple wives who decides that tonight he'll stay over at his first wife's place than his second, and that makes me feel slightly guilty. Yes, I am that weird. I've probably been thinking too much about the relationships between the characters in Bu Bu Jing Xin.
Speaking of BBJX, I'd like to take this chance to thank 8th Prince. I've always pitied you, darling, and while I love Ruo Xi with 4th Prince more, you and Ruo Xi's romance will forever be etched in my heart.
It's almost December! Who's excited?!
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- fate_otaku
- November 17th, 2011
- disappointed
I'll paint your life with the colours inside me.
Even if it means leaving mine grey.
- I felt the need to write. Something. Anything.
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- fate_otaku
- November 12th, 2011
- blah
When I'm with you I want to run away, but when I finally get away all I want is to run into you.
Hey doctor, have you diagnosed me with some emotional disorder yet? The growing forest of happy in my lungs is suffocating.
His back was against the wall, and woah I should not have gotten those 'wrong' thoughts seeing that. But what can you do?
He's became something that made a simple pen that's run out of ink important, so what do you make out of that? 'Make out'? Should I really be giggling like a school girl at that? Oh, wait. I am a school girl!
Look at that. The sun's shooting rays lands on his face, and oh the sight is probably the prettiest I've ever looked at. I'm running even more out of space to breathe.
- My pants are too tight.
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- fate_otaku
- November 11th, 2011
No, Fate, you are NOT going to go shopping this month. You can do this! Almost half the month gone already!
